Sunday, December 10, 2006

Trick-Cycling

A good description of depression vs feeling miserable at Trick Cycling

Depression is both the most godawful, visceral agony, and a numbness so
overwhelming you can't imagine ever feeling real again. It is an inability to
feel or be affected by anything other than your own intense pain. It is
frostbite of the mind. It is that dream where you want to scream but no sound
comes out. Depression is the feeling of walking through glue, both physically
and mentally, which reflects in the effort it takes to open your mouth to speak.
Depression paints the world monochrome and muffles all sounds. Depression strips
away your personality and leaves you two-dimensional. Normal human functioning
diminishes; sleep dwindles to nothing, food becomes an alien notion, weight
falls from your bones in a physical representation of your character and the
person you have forgotten you used to be. Depression is crawling on hands and
knees to get to the bathroom; it is lying in bed and wondering if you would be
able to move if the house was on fire. It is trying to carry out a familiar
activity and not having the first clue what to do.

Things have been going well these days and I am neither miserable nor depressed anymore ( Thankfully! because of the meds!)

3 comments:

Miette said...

I thought that was an amazing description as well. She sure can write!

Thanks for stopping by my blog... I've finally posted and hopefully won't be so remiss in the future.

I'm glad to hear that you are feeling well!

Anonymous said...

That is a really does sound exacltly like I feel when I am depressed. Made me shiver cause I never want to go back there.
Lorena (you know Julie's friend)

Anonymous said...

How amazingly descriptive you are of the "depression beast". I've suffered mild depression for a few years now and I've never heard it so aptly put! Thanks....
I do hope that you are well and I am looking forward to more of your blog. Betty in USA